Sleepless Night

Hari ini h-1 dan semua perasaan saya lagi berbalik. Nggak lagi sedih...blank...ataupun kecewa. Tapi marah. Kalau boleh pinjem line yang biasa ada di Korean Drama, pingin rasanya teriak di depannya "What was I to you???" :). Nggak ada omongan apapun. Cuma sms tanya undangan mau dianter kemana. What the....

Pingin cursing, pingin swearing tapi nggak lah. Not my style though.

Kalau kemarin mikir untuk nggak dateng, tapi hari ini pilih sebaliknya. And I will attend the wedding coolly (kalau nggak berubah pikiran lagi :)). Tapi kalaupun nggak jadi dateng, saya tau bukan karena patah hati alasannya. 

Mood booster hari ini:
Sleepless Night - Crush feat Punch
ost It's Okay It's Love

Ini lagu sebenernya sedih kata-katanya tapi ketutup sama musiknya yang up beat (ditambah nggak ngerti bahasanya). Lebih tepatnya, musiknya yang bikin saya suka lagu ini. Gloomy feeling nggak harus ditemenin Glenn Fredly lagi :)

I am in love with you, can’t you see my heart?
Please don’t go far away because my tears are about to fall

I am waiting for you
I’m at the same spot, at the same place
Just like how spring comes after the winter (with you)
Feelings rush over me like waves
Tears fall like the star light
It crushes into my heart

Why don’t you love me? (Why?)
Why are you in my head? (Love you)
I can’t say anything but (I don’t wanna cry)

The green roof in front of my house
Are you living there?
All night, I’m staring at that house

I am in love with you, can’t you see my heart?
Please don’t go far away because my tears are about to fall

The coat you always wore, the worn out, brown ruler
The bus that goes home, the restaurant you always went to
These are all memories of you, I remember you

The indie songs that played in your favorite bar
Your old sweater, your red scarf
These are all memories of you, you know?

Like finding shelter when it rains
Like resting when things get hard
I would always protect you from behind (with you)

It’s already past evening
The world silently closes its eyes
Only I have insomnia because of you

Am I the only deserted island?
Or did I set up a prison in my heart?
This is too cruel to be a punishment for love
I hate my heart
I know it love is pain

The crumpled up letter in my blue coat
It’s my true heart that I couldn’t tell you
In my lonely empty room, I confess alone on this sad night
I love you

I am in love with you, can’t you see my heart?
Please don’t go far away because my tears are about to fall

Tonight I wanna cry oh lady tell me why
On this sleepless and lonely night

Tonight I wanna cry oh lady tell me why
A lonely night at thoughts of you