Seperti ada petir di tengah hari yang panas waktu denger bosku - Sity Leo Samudera - mau resign. Dan aku orang pertama yang dia kasih tau, di hari yang masih pagi pula. Refleks air mata turun tanpa bisa ditahan. Sedih, kaget, nggak percaya, kehilangan....semua campur jadi satu.
Dan seharian cuma bisa bengong dan mikir apa yang akan terjadi nanti. Siapa yang akan gantiin, gimana orangnya nanti, berapa lama harus nunggu sampai masalah bensin mobil dan petty cash. Langsung terbayang cari kerjaan lagi. Kedengerannya cengeng banget tapi gimana lagi? Apalagi belakangan ini juga udah mulai rasa jenuh.
Tinggal menghitung hari sampai farewell itu terjadi :( Seperti kado ulangtahun tercepat yang nggak pernah diharapkan.
Jadi inget lagu yang Keiko nyanyiin sepulang gereja hari Minggu kemarin.
Uhhhhh akhirnya....selesai juga susun 1000 keping puzzle bergambar Mickey Mouse, Minnie Mouse, Pluto sama seekor anjing imut plus background lainnya. Waktu baru selesai pinggirannya, rasanya kok susah banget. Apalagi gambar lantainya yang kadang 'menyesatkan'. Sampai harus bongkar 3-4 kali karena waktu dipasang bagian atasnya, lah..kok nggak match :). Dan 1000 keping ini selesai kurang dari sebulan (efek nggak ada kerjaan setelah sampai di kost hehehe).
Ini nih gambarnya
dan 1000 keping ini akan jadi hadiah Natal buat Alexa Clementine Siahaan nanti. Sebelumnya, udah beli 1000 keping juga. Gambarnya Snow White and 7 Dwarfs. Nah kalau itu, aku hanya nimbrung sedikit. Selebihnya sih Ricky yang buat. Yang itu, buat hadiah Natalnya Keiko Maria Hutabarat. Dulu banget, 2003-2004an, pernah juga latah beli 1000 keping gambar pemandangan musim dingin. Latah karena lihat puzzle-puzzle hiasan dinding di rumah Sus Noni. Tapi ya gitu. Nggak selesai dan akhirnya hilang entah kemana. Banyak deh alasannya. Mulai dari nggak telaten, nggak ada waktu sampai nggak ada tempat nyaman buat ngerjainnya. Setelahnya, pernah beli juga yang gambarnya Winnie The Pooh & friends. Lupa berapa keping. Kalau nggak 500 ya 1000. Yang itu selesai. Tapi begitu dilem, rusak!
Ada 300 keping ketinggalan di Kikir. Gambarnya anak kecil lagi berdoa. Mau buat Keiko juga. Itu masih setengah jalan. Kapan-kapan mau minta dibawain ah.
Serunya susun puzzle, waktu mulainya memang susah banget. Bikin putus asa apalagi kalau ada bagian yang kita pikir pas tapi ternyata nggak. Begitu udah setengah jadi, malah nggak bisa berhenti. Beberapa kali sempat, mata udah ngantuk banget dan udah siap-siap tidur. Tiba-tiba kebangun dan duduk lagi hanya karena penasaran :))
Another summer day Has come and gone away In Paris and Rome But I wanna go home Mmmmmmmm
May be surrounded by A million people I Still feel all alone I just wanna go home Oh, I miss you, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two I'm fine baby, how are you? Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough My words were cold and flat And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane Another sunny place I'm lucky, I know But I wanna go home Mmmm, I've got to go home
Let me go home I'm just too far from where you are I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life It's like I just stepped outside When everything was going right And I know just why you could not Come along with me 'Cause this was not your dream But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come And gone away In even Paris and Rome And I wanna go home Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by A million people I Still feel all alone Oh, let me go home Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home I've had my run Baby, I'm done I gotta go home
Let me go home It will all be all right I'll be home tonight I'm coming back home
Unlikely, this is something that I don't have at the moment...
Been almost 6 months since my last post. So many things happened and mostly the 'down' things. But, the greatest thing happened within this period is baby Jeremy Gomar Hutabarat was on board on 26 May 2011. Got 4 nieces and 2 nephews by now :) So exciting indeed!
And now, sitting in my poor room, my new place since end of August, listening to my iTunes and just typing. To ease this crazy mind.
Speaking of easing a crazy mind, recently I'm so into this song. So relaxing and calming. Sometimes I wake up in the morning with this song stuck in my head.
Tohpati with his solo guitar and Shakila with her sexy alto voice in Lukisan Pagi. This is an old song back in late 90's if I'm not mistaken.
Hari ini seminggu yang lalu. Jam segini sudah selesai dinner di Potato Head Legian bareng FLo, Art dan temannya Art.
Tempatnya keren. Interiornya didominasi sama ambang jendela (yang seolah-olah) usang. Bisa dibilang dari langit-langit sampai ke roof top. Kita dapet meja di aisle, menghadap kolam renang dan pantai. Padahal pingin banget dapet di balkon outdoor atau kalau cuma berdua, asik juga di sofa yang deket kolam dan menghadap pantai.
Seperti biasa, classy resto seperti itu pilihan menunya nggak banyak karena kebanyakan memang dateng buat nge-wine. Pilihanku jatuh di Spaghetti Aglio Olio with Tuna Flakes, FLo pilih Grilled Wagyu Beef Burger sementara Art dan temannya pilih Spaghetti Carbonara + half dozen of snails buat appetizernya Art. Untuk minuman, aku pilih Disco Daiquiri - campuran berries. Rasanya asem-asem seger. Enak deh. Flo sama Art pesen Sparkling Wine by glass karena dari kemarin memang ngeyel pingin minum sedangkan temennya Art pilih Equil Natural.
Begitu makanannya dateng....waduh! Kok porsinya mini banget ya? Dan spaghetti.nya juga nggak terlalu ok. Masih enakan Aglio Olionya Flap Jaks. Tapi.....burgernya Burik dong. Top banget! Guede dan kelihatan juicy. Udah ada wagyu masih ditambah beberapa lembar bacon. Lengkap dengan seporsi salad dan french fries yang garing. Kejunya juga enak.
Karena masih laper, kita nggak lama-lama di situ. On the way pulang, kita mampir di warung indomie kaki lima untuk menuntaskan hasrat :) Kali ini aku pesen Indomie goreng + telur, pisang bakar sama wedang jahe. Burik pesen Indomie goreng dobel, telur setengah mateng dan cola susu. Art tadinya cuma pesen wedang jahe biji kemangi. Tapi gara-gara liat Burik, jadi ngiler juga dia sama telur setengah matengnya. Temennya Art pesen nasi gandul yang cukup bikin dia shock karena di Makassar nggak ada nasi kerendem kuah gitu.
Bener-bener nggak bakat jadi sosialita nih...End upnya masih pinggir jalan juga :)
Oh ya, nama warungnya Puno Kawan. Menunya lucu-lucu. Ada yang namanya Wedang Jalang aka Wedang Jahe Alang-Alang. Atau Susu Janda alias Susu Jahe NDog mAdu. Ada juga yang nakutin. Susu Macan alias Susu Madu seCANg. Atau Roti Silat - roti SrIkaya cokLAT. Kreatif!
Before I call it a night, let me summarize my day. 07.00am Off to work. By the time I got onto the bus, the rain pouring heavily. Fortunately, it stopped when we're at Menteng. 09.30am Had a chicken porridge for my breakfast. Since I had taken a (half day) sick leave last Friday, there were couple of emails should be responded. Did not take time though. 01.00pm Gado-gado Bu Bambang was my lunch menu. Then enjoying myself with Jeffery Deaver's book called The Stone Monkey. Jeffery Deaver is my new favorite recently. I finished the book by 06.10pm. I did a good multitasking today. Reading, checking emails, calling and other small thingy things :) 06.30pm Off to Fitness First. Threadmil for 30 minutes. Burnt 140 calories and reached 3 km. Then took 15-minute break. Followed by trying another instrument (at least new to me and I don't know what its name is) for 5 minutes. After that, proceeded to a cycle or RPM. Burnt another 40 calories in 15 minutes. Wowww almost got cramps on my tighs. 08.30pm Bought this one at Gramedia.
Though I don't know where to keep it after finish it. No more space in my wardrobe. Should I put some of my books up for sale? Well, need to think about it. Had rice with sauteed chicken and mushroom and a glass of coconut. Poor beverage! Headed to Giant for some groceries. I'm planning to bake chocolate molten cake tomorrow. 10.15pm Home at last. Oh, love is in the air today for most people as today is Valentine's day. Hotel's restos are fully booked (including my boss who had to pay Rp. 500,000 as deposit to secure her table at Lyon @Mandarin Oriental. Does not make sense at all!). Couples wearing couple shirts (sooooo sweet), love songs everywhere. Well, enjoy your moment guys.
Posting hari ini terinspirasi komentar bosku tadi pagi.
Seingetku, aku biarin rambutku panjang sejak kelas 1 SD sampai SMA. Minimal sebahu. Dari SD - SMP selalu berangkat sekolah dengan model yang beda-beda. Kadang buntut kuda, kadang diiket 2, kadang dikepang. Pokoknya macem-macem deh. Sialnya, waktu kelas 6 aku kena bully sama temen sekelas. Anak cewek, badannya bongsor. Amatul namanya. Tiap hari selalu aja buntut kudaku ditarik-tarik dan sialnya aku cuma bisa diem. Makanya paling aman sih dikepang jadinya dia nggak bisa ngapa-ngapain.
Nah, di kelas 6 itu kita ada retreat. Belum berangkat aja udah nervous duluan. Setiap selesai mandi pagi adalah saat-saat paling menyiksa. Selesai retreat, foto-foto tiap kelas dipajang di mading. Damn! semua komentar kalau di foto retreat kelasku ada penampakan.
Yeah....itu karena rambutku tergerai nggak karuan. Sebabnya? Karena aku nggak bisa sisir sendiri :(( Maksudnya, aku nggak bisa kuncir atau kepang rambutku sendiri. Tiap habis mandi yang sisirin ya si mbak. Bahkan bikin buntut kuda aja nggak bisa. Parah deh.
Nah sejak kelas 3 SMA bisa dibilang nggak kenal karet. Diiket hanya kalau mandi. Selebihnya dibiarin gitu aja. Biarpun cuaca panas sekalipun. Paling sesekali pakai bandana. Biarpun gitu, nggak pernah lepek (duh ini bahasanya jelek banget) karena keringetan lho.
Karena nggak pernah diiket, sampai pernah dibikin taruhan sama Andri & Azizah - temen sekelas. Taruhannya: apakah aku akan iket rambutku atau nggak. Taruhan yang nggak banget. Tau nggak taruhannya berapa? 50 perak saja :) Nggak tau deh siapa yang menang.
Masuk kuliah udah nggak terlalu panjang lagi. Nah potongan terpendek sampai kayak mangkok nggak jelas itu pas pertama kali kerja. Gara-gara salon nggak jelas. Sejak kerja, mulai ganti-ganti. Kalau bosen panjang ya dipendekin atau gantian.
Sekarang sih bertahan panjang biarpun nggak panjang-panjang banget. Dan karena tipe rambutku berminyak, jadi tiap pagi pasti keramas. Makanya nggak pernah diiket-iket. Mulai berkaret lagi sejak nge-gym. Karena abis selesai gym nggak pernah keramas, jadi abis mandi ya dibikin pony tail gitu.
Nah tadi pagi ngerasa bad hair day banget (tiap hari juga sih). Iseng aku kuncir. Tiba-tiba bosku komen gini:
Si ibu: rambut kamu bagusan begitu Aku: cengar-cengir nggak jelas campur berbunga-bunga Si ibu: jadi kayak anak-anak Aku: whaatttt???? (dalem hati aja sih)
Have you ever been so restless? When you feel so sleepy and your eyes are so damn heavy But then you find yourself staring at the ceiling all night long The clock is ticking and it makes you nervous As if you are racing with the dawn It's so frustrating
Have you ever been so restless? When you feel very exhausted And your body needs a good rest after a long long tiring day But then your mind does not want to compromise And prefers to wander around It's so depressing
Have your ever been so restless? When you think you have an unsolved problem And you have to find a way out before it's killing you But in fact, everything goes perfectly No debt to pay No obligation to take It's so weary
Perhaps sleeping is an easy activity but for me, it really needs a big effort. That's why I do envy this child. She sleeps peacefully.
I just cradled baby Alexa in my arms for half an hour till she fell asleep peacefully. Sang her some gospels which came into my mind. Seperti Bapa Sayang Anaknya and Semua Baik were on my first lists just like I did with Kei year ago. And it did with Alexa too...yyayyy. Then I decided to plug my ears with Ipod and sang along my playlist. It was way much better :) Yes, baby Alexa Clementine Siahaan is our new comer. Born on 17 January at 07.59pm with 4240 grams and 53 cm. Such a big baby girl. And she looks like her daddy indeed. Sleeps with her open mouth and if you look at their eyes, you'll see a resemblance there. Though she has a curly hair like her mom. God bless you sweet child. Sleep tight tonight 'cos angels are around you.
I bought this book at Gramedia Plaza Semanggi last month. Not a fan of Hitler, of course. Just a simple curiosity about why he did that cruelest thing to thousands of innocent people...what's on his mind....why was he so racist? Page one to page two to page three....damn translation!! I really cannot understand it at all. Don't get me wrong. It's in Bahasa version but seems they translated it word per word. So poor! Took a deep breath and tried again but still....it's so not enjoyable to read. I gave up! Spending IDR 150,000 just for nothing. This is my second unfinished book after Brisingr.
I remember my little chat with Ben Gledhill, my colleague from Hong Kong office, in one fine morning about two weeks ago. We were discussing about his ground transport arrangement when suddenly he looked so shocked. Ben: Wow! Me: What? Ben: Is there something you want to confess....now? Me: No? Why? Ben: Wow! Me: Whaaat?? Ben: That! (pointing his finger to my book) Are you one of them or what? Me: Hahaha (blushing) no....just curious. Uhhmm I should've kept this hidden (putting some papers and books on top of it) Then Ben left me like he just got a heart attack. Sorry pal!
Sitting in silence... Listening to Mr. Bobby Caldwell with his Real Thing... It's 10.12pm now So restless... My mind is wandering freely Unfocus But I feel comfortable Honestly...I like being alone No need to share things with others No need to speak up No need to listen to Am I too selfish? Dunno
I like being alone Noone can touch me Noone can hurt me Noone can hush hush me
Finally....after having some considerations I stepped into Fitness First at Plaza Semanggi. Hahaha it's like taking a giant leap. Me, definetely not a sport person, became a member of a health club. And enrolled for 12 months! Ckckck...will I survive there?
After paid the enrollment fee, the sales guy took me to the training floor. He introduced me to one of the trainers there who then took my data ie weight, height, body fat, calories etc etc. Whaaattt?? I'm 53 kg and my body fat is 26 point something % while my calories is only thousand something. So, my goal is to gain 24% for fat and more calories.
Well....let's see what's gonna happen in the next few months. Will I lose some fat and kilos? Or will I be stuck after couple of sessions? I can still enjoy threadmill and body combat class tho.
Tomorrow's plan. Buy sneakers, socks, T-shirts and shorts. Action is important but preparation is way more important :))
I was browsing some airlines for my return ticket when I saw a headline about Mandala which will not operate again starting tomorrow due to bankruptcy or here. Oh nooooooooo!!!! I just bought my ticket yesterday and now they release that news??? I am so very sure that I (and all other passangers) will not ever get a refund. Luckily, it's only one way and promo but still shocking. Why did they accept reservation yesterday? This must have been predicted before, right? And by the way, here is my e-ticket :(
This is called trial and error. Seems it's not gonna happen. At least not now. Perhaps years from now? But I look so pretty, don't I? hahaha I did enjoy this moment....
12.39am dan belum bisa tidur. Mendadak mellow... 6 hari dari sekarang dan semuanya nggak akan sama lagi. Kebersamaan ini terpisah jarak lagi. Rasanya dilema. Mau nggak sedih, hati ini nggak bisa diajak kompromi. Ketakutan itu muncul lagi. Tapi kalau dia tau apa yang aku rasa, dia akan berangkat dengan hati nggak tenang padahal harusnya bersyukur karena nggak harus jobless terlalu lama. Tuhan... Saya nggak bisa selalu ada di samping dia tapi kiranya Tuhan jaga dia biar kebaikan yang dia punya boleh jadi berkat buat sekitarnya dan kekurangan yang ada, boleh dia perbaiki di tempat baru, dia boleh belajar banyak hal baru Tuhan... jaga saya di sini... supaya boleh tunggu dia dan dengan seijinMu, suatu saat nanti kami bisa wujudkan rencana kami pada waktuMu Tuhan... saya sayang dia... jaga cinta kami
When we pray, sturdy in the fire when we pray, take away the worlds desire when we pray, Holy spirit lift us higher when we pray, when we pray When we pray, let it not be for a season when we pray, give us wisdom and not reason when we pray, let Your name be our petition when we pray, when we pray, when we pray When you pray, lean not on your understanding when you pray, just take hold of His commandments when you pray, know that He hears you crying when you pray, when you pray When you pray, let it not be for a season when you pray, ask for wisdom and not reason when you pray, let His name be your petition when you pray, when you pray
Lead us in Your righteous ways turn our hearts to seek Your face wash away all iniquity Search the inner part within wipe away every sin at Thy throne of grace I bow my knees
First time I heard this song, it touched me so deeply. I must admit that I did not pray for so long intentionally. I was too 'tired'....felt that there's no easy way for this situation. I gave up. With all problems within these months. Now, as I'm counting the days, I wish I could have started it again. Crossing my fingers and talking to Him. I know He knows my heart. He knows what I'm feeling right now. This burden... So help me Lord...
Today is the very last day in 2010. We all are heading to 2011 in the next few hours. So many things happened in this year especially in this December. Lots of tears for sure. And...he will leave me (again). This time to catch his new path in Bali. This is sad but I have to be tough. I'll put everything in His hands. That's all....
I love clouds....seeing them always comforts me. No matter how weary I am or how sad I am. I love to imagine what their shapes look like. Sometimes, they can look like a bear or a horse or simply like a cotton ball flying high in the sky. Wish I could touch and feel them.
My favorite is a clear blue sky with thick and white clouds. Such a beautiful decoration!
Clouds White Very puffy Covers the sun Plays hide and seek Sometimes happy and sometimes sad By Sivaram & Kathryn
You can see more cute poems about clouds written by 4th grade kids here
Menurut wikipedia: Salak (Salacca zalacca) is a species of palm tree (family Arecaceae) native to Indonesia. It is a very short-stemmed palm, with leaves up to 6m long; each leaf has a 2m long petiole with spines up to 15 cm long, and numerous leaflets.The fruit grow in clusters at the base of the palm, and are also known as snake fruit due to the reddish-brown scaly skin. They are about the size and shape of a ripe fig, with a distinct tip. The pulp is edible. The fruit can be peeled by pinching the tip which should cause the skin to slough off so it can be pulled away. The fruit inside consists of three lobes, each containing a large inedible seed. The lobes resemble, and have the consistency of, large peeled garlic cloves. The taste is usually sweet and acidic, but its apple-like texture can vary from very dry and crumbly (salak pondoh from Yogyakarta) to moist and crunchy (salak Bali). Bapak dan mama selalu bilang kalau buah ini adalah favoritku sejak kecil. Nggak peduli sepet atau manis, selalu suka. Dan paling suka sih sama yang sepet (lebih pilih buah sepet dan asem daripada yang manis). Sebenernya, selain Yogya dan Bali, ada satu desa kecil penghasil buah ini. Sayangnya memang kalah pamor. Namanya Suaru, desa kecil di Jawa Timur tempat mbah buyut dari pihak mama. Jadi nggak heran deh kalo buah ini masuk kategori favorit. Kalo udah makan, suka lupa kalo itu bukan cemilan. Nggak berhenti kalo belum habis :))
